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Boethius' Wheel (Intro)
00:44
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[spoken word]
and Boethius, author of the Consolation of Philosophy
"It's my belief that history is a wheel"
“Inconstency is my very essence” - says the wheel
“Rise up on my spokes if you like, but don't complain that then you are cast back down into the depths."
Good times pass away, but then so do the bad.
Mutability is our tragedy, but it is also our hope.
The worst of times like the best, are always passing away.
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[Verse 1]
My life's been hazy lately
Feeling like a daydream
Sitting on the canal
Memories all so fleeting
The moments that I'll miss
When I'm old and buried
Nostalgia for a time
When I didn't have a worry
[Chorus] X2
Was so brief but so sweet
I wish you'd never leave
Summer nights in scrubs
Another time another love
I'll write the same songs
About a world I thought I knew
Forever Adolescent
God I'll miss you
[Verse 2]
I hope I can bear to be without you
And those sunsets on Parliament Hill
Fucking around with time to kill
You ran straight through my heart
Sitting under the sky so beautiful and dark
[Chorus] X2
Was so brief but so sweet
I wish you'd never leave
Summer nights in scrubs
Another time another love
I'll write the same songs
About a world I thought I knew
Forever Adolescent
God I'll miss you
[Verse (Ned Thomas)]
I could've smoked up
I turn it all into dust
But three hours till the sun sets baby
And now I'm choked up
I can't pretend anymore
That I didn't see it coming baby
It won't matter too much in a year
When we're all grown up
But for now we're just kids
Wouldn't matter too much If I showed that
I care for you
I care for you
I care
Care
[Chorus] X4
Was so brief but so sweet
I wish you'd never leave
Summer nights in scrubs
Another time another love
I'll write the same songs
About a world I thought I knew
Forever Adolescent
God I'll miss you
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[Verse 1]
Running away to Paris, Texas
Trying to escape from all the things I’ve dealt with
I just wanna be with all my friends
And free from all responsibility
Running away to Paris, Texas
Trying to escape from all the things I’ve dealt with
I just wanna be with all my friends
And free from all responsibility
[Pre-chorus]
I just want to be up
You and me together at 3 AM
Why do I feel so alone
When this is the place
That I call my home
[Chorus]
Running away to Paris Texas and I wonder how
I'm gonna hide from all the problems that I deal with now
In the desert I hope I'll forget just who I am
A romanticised fantasy I'll never speak of again
[Verse 2]
I love the city but I need to feel free
All part of a petty bourgeoise dream
Live and die in the place I was brought up in
It's what I want but I’ll run like the wind (one day)
I’ll stay
Walking up to Kensal Green on a Saturday
Paris, Texas doesn't seem too far away
[Chorus] X2
Running away to Paris Texas and I wonder how
I'm gonna hide from all the problems that I deal with now
In the desert I hope ill forget just who I am
A romanticised fantasy I'll never speak of again
[Spoken Word]
And for the first time he wished he were far away
Lost in a deep, vast country where nobody knew him
Somewhere without language or streets
And he dreamed about this place without knowing its name
And when he woke up he was on fire
There were blue flames burning the sheets of his bed
He ran through the flames towards the only two people he loved
But they were gone
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[Verse 1]
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Our paths will cross even if we wander
I hope we're immortally bound
Until I’m 6 feet deep in the ground
[Verse 2] X2
Absence makes my heart grow stronger
But i cant stand to wait much longer
Like the moon rises and sun falls
It should last forever till the sun explodes
[Outro]
Until the sun explodes
Until the sun explodes
Until the sun explodes
Until the sun explodes
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5. |
Chlorine
05:36
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[Chorus]
Chlorine smell fills my lungs
Just like when I was so young
I remember swimming pools and bliss
Under the summer sun's kiss
[Verse 1]
All this shit reminds me of
The person I once was
Crying my eyes out on the floor
To These Days by Nico last fall
I remember the day I came out as trans
In the hotel room in Milan
I had to cut off all my friends
But it was for the best in the end
[Chorus]
Chlorine smell fills my lungs
Just like when i was so young
I remember swimming pools and bliss
Under the summer sun's kiss
[Bridge]
And I guess its worth saying
That I found what i was craving
My identity belongs to me
A self actualised fantasy
Thats just how its meant to be
But I'm still bound by codependency
[Chorus]
Chlorine smell fills my lungs
Just like when I was so young
I remember swimming pools and bliss
Under the summer sun's kiss
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6. |
Under The Apple Tree
04:03
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[Chorus] X2
Sitting beneath the summer's sky
Under the apple tree is where we lie
We'll never need to say goodbye
Kingdom of scrubland is where we reside
[Verse 1]
I hope we’ll live on the canal
Sit around as the sun goes down
I'll make some music you’ll live your life
We’ll watch fallen angels every night
Lazy smoke on sunday mornings
A simple existence that I'm yearning
I want those walks in the cemetery in kensal
that I’ll try to prolong the end of
[Chorus] X2
Sitting beneath the summer's sky
Under the apple tree is where we lie
We'll never need to say goodbye
Kingdom of scrubland is where we reside
[Verse 2]
Pick myself up by the bootstraps
Tryinga to get my shit together
I'm just waiting for better weather
The seasons turn the leaves are green
It'll all be better by the summer
Under the shade of the apple tree
We’ll make a life where we can live carefree
I think I'm happy here actually
[Chorus] X4
Sitting beneath the summer's sky
Under the apple tree is where we lie
We'll never need to say goodbye
Kingdom of scrubland is where we reside
[Spoken Word] (Translated from French)
I told you escape is a dream
You only have to take an interest in things to see their beauty
It’s true
After all things are just what they are
A face Is a face
Plates are plates
Men are men
And life is life
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[Verse 1]
Like Icarus we shot for the sun
Earth’s pretty small from up here ya know
And God wasn’t there to catch our fall
My hubris would come to destroy us once for all
Like Orpheus and Eurydice
We ended tragically and now you’re gone
And as I looked back down to see you
All I could do was look on
[Verse 2]
I’ve been feeling so lonely
Up on the moon staring into our blue world
A million miles apart
And all I wanted was to be your girl (your boy, your girl, your boy)
I miss you now that we’re apart
And I’d still give you the world
But all that we were and could be
Is lost in the great vast cosmic swirl
[Chorus] (Yuli Lagodinsky)
I've been downhearted baby
What happened’s kinda hazy
But my eyes started to wet
Ever since the day you left
Was it a misunderstanding
Or was I too demanding
The only thing that I regret
Ever since the day we met
[Outro]
Ever since the day you left
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[Instrumental]
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PART I: Beginning Of The End
[Instrumental]
PART II: Afternoon Before The Apocalypse
[Verse 1]
I stare out into the warm glow
Of a london sunset
On the afternoon before the
Apocalypse
We're all out of time
We had five years left
But it's alright we'll hold hands
As it all ends
[Verse 2]
As the night draws near
I confront my fear of the eternal dark
This one moments all we've got
Sitting in this park
We both knew it would end
Before the bad times could start
But our love’s eternal
You're always in my heart
[Poem 1: London by William Blake]
I wander through each charterd street,
Near where the chartered Thames does flow.
And mark in every face I meet
Marks of weakness, marks of woe.
In every cry of every Man,
In every Infants cry of fear,
In every voice: in every ban,
The mind-forged manacles I hear
How the Chimney-sweepers cry
Every blackening Church appalls,
And the hapless Soldiers sigh
Runs in blood down Palace walls
But most through midnight streets I hear
How the youthful Harlots curse
Blasts the new-born Infants tear
And blights with plagues the Marriage hearse
[Climax] (Nicky Griffin)
The sky falls down
There’ll be hell to pay
What a beautiful day
The sky falls down
There’ll be hell to pay
What a beautiful day
PART III: Always
[Poem 2: Stanmore Hill by Jackie Ward]
The hill stretched far above the skyline of concrete and glass and the Silhouette of the city was outlined on the horizon.
I traipsed through the long grass and came to an edge, the sky opening up before me as it blew up in streaks of orange and pink.
You could almost even see the stars tonight, a blissful sky broken only By the dim, distant glow of the north circular.
Quiet suburbia was slashed in half by Westway billboards and the Wembley arch.
That day, I felt so close to the heavens that I could almost touch them.
You were long gone but your presence still remained.
It was a beautiful day.
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